Favoritism at its Finest...

I don't know if i mentioned previously that I am not an only child. I kno that I did mention that my mother raised me from an infant to an adult tho. My mom had a son when my father & her got together so I grew up with an older brother, 8yrs older to be exact. I would have had 2 brothers but, sadly, her youngest son Brian died when he was 4 due to an infection that lead to his heart. 

Aside from the obvious age difference, my brother & I were like night  & day. He was the all mighty "Golden Child" who could do no wrong & I was the mouthy, bad ass, who always winded up in trouble & punished. My brother never got into fights, he got good grades, he didn't talk back, & he never seemed to get punished either. I think I reember him getting punished only ONCE our entire childhood. He damn well NEVER got hit & beat like I did, he didn't get the verbal abuse I had gotten either. Matter of fact, he didn't even get his ass busted for being bad like most kids do. Crazy right?!

When we would go shopping he would get any & everything he wanted or asked for but god forbid if I had asked for anything, even something out of a damn quater machine. I would not only get told no but I would get my head chewed off for even asking! I would basically get the same speech before we would even get into the store, "Don't touch anything, stay with your mother & I at all times, if you wander off you're gonna get your ass busted in front of everyone, I don't care if people see you or not & or if you get embarrassed. & don't even think about asking for anything either because it's not gonna happen!" ...Fucked up wasn't it? 

I remember when he played sports my parents bought his letterman jacket, for his sweet 16 they had a huge party at the VFW hall up the street from us with a dj, & did the same for his graduation. They even got him a 14k gold school ring as well as paid for his senior/graduation portraits too. Now when it came time for me I didn't even come close to getting what he did! My sweet 16 was a party where barely anyone showed up; which was at my house & only friends were invited, then a sleepover with 4 girls after. When I played soccer I didn't get a jacket, when I graduated I damn sure didn't get a party. I got dinner at Golden Corral after, no gifts or money either. When it came time to order my school ring I didn't get a gold or even silver ring, I got a valadium plated one & the only reason my senoir portraits were bought was because there was a special & my graduation portraits were never purchased at all. Oh, & the icing on the cake; my teeth are crooked & I've needed braces since middle school & NEVER got them but guess who did?! 

Don't get me wrong though, I love my brother. Always have, always will. He's not just my brother, he's always been my bestfriend; my butthead. LOL But regardless it still hurt to know that both my parents favored him over me, no matter how old I was. Even my father, still to this day, favors him over me. He got in touch with me to try to get a hold of my brother so that he could talk to my nieces but NEVER ONCE asked about his grandson's. One he hasnt seen since he was 1 & the other he has never met at all. Its pretty pathetic. Especially if you add the fact that my boys are his biological grand children. 

Most people who say that their parents favor one sibling over another are 9 times outta 10  just exaggerating, but after what I just said, I'll let you decide if I'm "exaggerating" or not... 

I swear on everything, I'll NEVER favor one of my boys over the other... I'd never want them to feel the way I did while I was growing up!